Somehow my desire for rest and relaxation that I was feeling in the weeks leading up to Across the Years, has morphed into the Fear of Missing Out. I'm left wondering why its so difficult for me to bask a little bit in the glow and successes of 2010. Instead I'm looking ahead to what I need to do and what I want to accomplish.
I rested completely for two weeks. No running and just a little bit of Pilates, yoga and a few pool running sessions. While much, much better and no longer swollen, my left calf is still not 100%. So I'm more aggressively seeking outside therapy in addition to my own icing and foam rolling. I already had a little Graston and ART last week, with more later this week, plus a massage and a chiropractic adjustment tomorrow.
I think I jumped back into exercise too quickly this week with stairmaster and weights yesterday and a 3 mile run today. I'm paying for it now. I haven't really hit the weights in more than a month so I hope that the discomfort I'm currently feeling is mostly normal muscle soreness, rather than dysfunction.
I updated my 2011 race schedule on the sidebar. I'm registered for Hagg, but I think the chances of me running that race is less than 25%. I registered during an endorphin high after Autumn Leaves. But it's not one of my favorites and I never really intended to ever run it again. Plus I haven't trained on trails, let alone muddy trails, in months. Considering it's a month away, and I'm not really running right now, it seems very unlikely I'll toe the line on that one. And I don't really care.
What I really care about right now is just getting out and running. I miss my routine. I miss recording runs in my training log. I recently had the opportunity to connect with a new group of cool, women runners. I miss being able to run with them.
Think I need to find some cheese to go with this whine? I do! I likely need to disconnect from running for a little while. How to do that? I don't know. But I need to figure out how to how to relax more and just go with the flow... kind of like non-runner Marc. : )